Yup, today is one of those days.....
You see, tomorrow is my birthday I will be thirty-onederful.... ha! I am not upset that tomorrow is my birthday, or that I am closer to 40 than I am to 20, or that I noticed I have new wrinkles under my eyes no REALLY I am FINE!! haha
Ok, Ok, it is bothering me, but why? I realized this morning it is not that I am having a birthday, it is that I just realized my youngest brother (14 years younger than me) is in his last year of high school. WHAT HAPPENED??? How is it that my baby brother is a Senior?? I feel like one of those sappy moms that cries to her BBF after dropping off her first born to college.
My "little" brother who is over 6ft tall now was my first baby! He was totally my kid, my mom had him "late" in life at 40 and I was her main helper for him. Heck some people even thought I WAS his mom and that she was covering up for me that I had a kid at 14!! Yes seriously... people love drama.
Growing up on a farm away from "town" your bothers, sisters, and cousins are your FRIENDS. They are the best friends you can ever imagine having. In fact when your family is so close, you have trouble having "other" friends because it takes away from the family time you treasure.
Here is a picture of my little brother Chad (on the left) and his "best friend cousin" Massimo, when they were little boys, just how I think if them today.
Here they are now, still best friend cousins. Still the best boys I have ever met (I might be bias), and twice as tall as they were in the top picture.
I have two other siblings that I ADORE, but there will always be a special place in my heart for my little Chadito, he gave me a glimpse into what it would be like to have my own son. I have missed most of his "older" life due to me moving away to college and then Arizona. It makes me sad to watch these years fly by, but elated to see my little baby brother become a strong, faith filled, super smart, outgoing, daring, young man.
I am uber proud of you Chad and totally a mess all at the same time.
I Love You little bro!